i do not sit still
i absolutely hate sitting around. in theory - i always "set" (pun intended) aside time to force myself to either relax or do something for me - but it never happens. and if i'm being honest, it could happen somewhat easily, but i'm (not) stubborn. so, this whole sitting at home thing has me antsy. i already made myself an office - which was well-warranted- but guys, I MISS SHOOTING. like miss it, miss it. so, luckily i live with my favorite subject (but y'all are some very close seconds) and conned him into 10 minutes of cooperation.
i figured i would share our " extra mini" shoot and while i'm at it - start a blog! i've never had a diary - or at least not since i've been like an adult (but - as every other 20-some year old mother would say - i'm not a regular mom, i'm a cool mom). it's ironic because i never shut up and also, i'm into writing. i have been writing poetry for a couple years - but perhaps i will give that it's own mention some other time. i used to be a murder-mystery junkie when i actually could sit down to watch a show. have you ever noticed that every. single. person. has a diary on these shows? first thought - if something ever happens to me, how will i be found without one? second thought - maybe there is a correlation between having a diary and getting murdered? either way, not worth the risk. so, instead i will save someone a plot and my husband some sanity and just talk to you all - or my computer - i will never really know which.
on another note, i just want to mention that i know the world is like the monster in our closet right now. this coronavirus pandemic has affected almost (if not) everyone in the world. some have lost jobs, freedom, experiences, and even their lives. i am just trying to be as thankful as i can in something like this. for those of you who don't know me, i struggle with severe anxiety. i'm a control freak and having something that i have absolutely no control over governing my life is very difficult for me. however, i have my health, my family and their health, groceries in the fridge, a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and even four streaming services. all in all, i have it pretty good. my heart goes out to families that don't know where they will get their next meal, homeless that have no place to shelter, individuals that don't have great odds should they be affected, children who don't have a safe place to call home and aren't being checked on in times like these. please, hug your families a little tighter for me tonight.
if you're still here, thanks for sticking around. now you know what my husband deals with... and my dogs... and my child (of which, fortunately for me, the last three cannot tell me to shush yet). i hope life is being kind to you. i hope peace, love, and health radiate from you and your loved ones in times like these.
all my love,
hali k.
